Eureka

Hmmm. I guess that I should use this Blog space every once in a while. I'm hardly one for making things public much and I tend to be an observer more or less except when action needs to be taken. You know the type that gives the rope to hang yourself. I tend to do that all the time and I tend to let people either work things out on their own or when they fail help them to realize where the failure lay and work with them till they are back up off the floor.

Now, I'm not your typical cookie cutter Master. I really am more the D/s type personia, not so much in all aspects but in ways that helps my slave/sub to grow in ways and at a pace that will make things last. Typical involvement for me would be observe, analyze, decide and then act. The basic response in everyday life. I would like myself to take a more proactive lane sometimes but when I do go that route I feel as if I'm jumping the gun although the outcomes are very similar. I see life as a game of chess and tend to use that vision everywhere. Many dont realize just how that works and cant bring themselves to look as far ahead as they can possibly and reasonably see. For example while driving, there are many that tent to look only a car or two ahead. I go further then that. I want to see 5 cars ahead or more. I want to see the conditions from as far away as possible and have a few reactions ready, you know the plan A ,plan B, plan C approach so that when something needs a response its there , no panic, no hesitation, no indecisiveness.

I find myself doing the same with lalana as I always have as a vanilla couple and now as M/s-D/s. As those of you can tell she has been doing this for a month lnger then I have and this is partly the reason why I am now just going to start contributing to this blog. Watching to see if this is really the life she wants to lead and above all if it is the right track for us as a couple. after all there is no M/s-D/s if there is not a relationship to support it in our situation. there are addictive personalities out there that grab something for a minute and can do nothing less for a time then just lose intrest overnight. I wasnt sure if this was one of those instances with the dynamic that we had chosen to pursue.

Now a few months into it I can see that this will go on and that it is who she is and More importantly who I am. I am dominant, no question about it. Always have been and will continue to be till my dying day. There are times where I must backseat that natural side of me like work but at the end of the day if I may paraphrase Popeye," I ams what I ams , who I ams."